Wow. I've only been a fully fledged adult for less than two weeks and already I'm sick of it. Before I left Nairobi I never really worried about things like salt and milk but now my very existence seems to be defined by them. For real. I seem to always be walking along the street wondering if I have enough salt or milk in my flat. I always do but I never really stop wondering.

Being an adult sucks, and now I know why people always try to delay it as much as possible. Until now the solution to all my financial problems has always been "MAA!" but now I have to think and plan and budget and a whole lot of things that I couldn't normally be bothered with. Everytime I take out my wallet at the supermarket I am overcome by an inordinate sense of guilt, like "What have I done lately to earn the right to spend this money?" I end up spending it anyway but the guilt keeps me up late at night.

Today I decided t o put my guilt aside and spend anyway. I took a trip to a nearby town and ate at Mickey dees. The sales clerk gave me this look of amazement when I ordered the 99p muffin (triple chocolate-yum!) and a 99p burger. (Odd combo) Two pounds seems like a steal but not in proportion to all my other bargains this week, like the 49p Coca cola glass. Anyway, there was little guilt as I was eating, just jealousy and what we Kenyans used to call kimnatho (spelling?) as all the little kiddies threw perfectly good fries on the floor and I knew I had too much pride to get down on my hands and knees to pick them up. (Right?)

I left mickey dees slightly unsatisfied and craving more chicken but I knew in that state I should not even venture into Sainsbury's coz I would head straight for the frozen food section. So I just wandered around the town looking at the many things I wanted and couldn't have.

All this has taught me one thing though. (hurrah!) That no matter what comes I need to keep my eyes on the ball. I need to get to a stage in my life when I can walk into a store and see something in a store that I like and just go ahead and buy it. its going to be hard; there's a party going on somewhere on the campus like every night and there's no shortage of people urging me to go along. How other's before me have done it, I don't know, but I know how I plan to do it.

Through He that began a good work in me...

Keep your eyes on the ball.

(Once again, post your comments on my bulletin board. I'm working on a website so keep your eyes open for that!)

Yaay! Finally I got it set up! This is the site where I will write all my nonsense and stuff so if you dont like nonsense, you're in the wrong place!